Compulsion

I experience occasional anxiety crises. I'm not anxious all the time, but there are moments when I lose control and have the urge to eat an entire chocolate bar. Whether it's due to PMS, a stressful job, or a sense of existential emptiness. Who hasn't been there? I was consistently going to the gym until my knee started acting up. Approaching the age of forty, I discovered I have patellar deviations that are wearing down the cartilage. Sitting hurts, walking hurts. The solution would be to go to the gym gradually to correct the problem. Ironically, this is the month when I've had the most work. Sitting. Which made my knees hurt even more and pushed me toward rest. Working while sitting triggers anxiety for me. Whether it's to finish quickly, see the work flow, or distract myself from the strident sounds of the four people and three dogs in my house while trying to host a webinar. I need peace and quiet to control anxiety. Then I had a brilliant idea to manage my an...